The Duality Of Embodied Soul Work

The Duality Of Embodied Soul Work

The Duality of Embodied Soul Work

Showing up in your authentic truth, no matter how messy and no matter how socially unacceptable, takes immense courage. Especially when the stakes are high.

It unleashes a potent force of grace, which enables the old caked in ancestral and karmic stuff you have carried around for aeons that isn’t really you, to drop away, so you can start to heal and thrive as a ‘whole’ person.

As you show up in this way, an alchemy sparks in your soul. You start to feel that wholeness, that love, that approval, that power you always sought outside of yourself, was always accessible within you.

Until this moment, you may have mistakenly sought this ‘love, belonging and respect’ through lovers, spiritual knowledge and grace, success or even more vicariously through having family and lots of friends…

Very rarely has externalised seeking ever sustained us or given us the deep and lasting nourishment we crave.

As we give ourselves permission to feel all our hidden and uncomfortable places, without thought for what may happen next, another force enters the fray. Suddenly what was just familiar let alone what tormented us, when held in the eyes of presence, neutrality, compassion and non judgement starts to morph – shedding a light that may be shocking at first as to our own part in the unfolding of the play of our lives as protagonist.

Because, if we are willing to show up fully, in all our places, both the good & the bad, the seemingly shiny and the doomed, we have a chance at redemption.

As we transcend self-judgement, embracing these wanted and unwanted places of duality, we can catch glimpses of a deeper force – that of our soul’s brilliance, shining brightly through the facades of ‘self’ we have carefully constructed or were thrown haphazardly upon us from the get-go.

It is here, through fleeting glimpses, we witness our true nature. Sometimes, in the very brightest things lay our deepest attachments to false idols. These places often protect our most vulnerable truths, keeping old ghosts at bay that are no longer real. As we carefully unpack these ancient heirlooms, handed down through the generations, we actually get to witness our inherent beauty, clothed in our most delicate vulnerability.

These places within us, are so often misperceived not just as the core wounds of rejection, abandonment, isolation, neglect, abuse and shame but also as achievements, healer and millionaire. Because the emotional body is so subjective, and triggers such viscerally embedded fear and love patterns, we rarely manage to see through these false-friends that keep us chained to a permanent sense of separation from Source.

However, in the quiet solitude of this sacred and flawed nakedness, where we are no longer governed by our emotive and blinkered filters, THE GATEWAY TO OUR SOUL LIGHT AWAITS.

I am reminded of the ugly duckling who emerged a swan. Such astonishing beauty effortlessly flows when we dare to not get overly attached to fixing, healing or changing these wounded or carefully disguised places with the power of our will and manifesting abilities.

This is my journey. This is my path. I shine my light from here, anchored in my body, in the mud of my sweat, grief, tears and joy. Wisdom that comes from the earth in this way, is hard won. Like the lotus that flowers, you too can utilise the muck that surrounds you to fertilise your eventual blossoming and be humbled at the majesty of what was always buried under the shit!

Embodied Change

On Embodying Change:

Arnold Beisser’s “paradoxial theory of change” is based on an extremely simple premise; we do what we do, until we don’t.

It’s as simple as that…we literally keep getting the same results until we decide to give up on our habitual ways of doing “life” and do it differently.

We have to decide to change in order to change and until we choose to wake up and smell the coffee and take responsibility for our own suffering, things will remain as they are. 

Therefore no matter how much we look for a change agency outside ourselves by praying to a deity, doing ritual, going on courses, learning cool spiritual tools, or even seeing a therapist/healer, we will not actually change the curent situation until we choose to look towards our own self as change agent and own our innate power to take back control of our lives through our choices and habits.

Yet here’s the rub;  we’ve been conditioned to completely avoid the one thing capable of change -ourselves – our culture is so loaded against us being present and embodying our own senses, breath and moment to moment choices and taking full command of them through facing the patterns and choices we’d not usually see as ours to make or reclaim.

This SIMPLE notion is the last thing our ego wants to face up to. A life of social and religious / new age conditioning which may stem back many past lives and generations is hard to turn round on a six pence, especially where trauma haunts our past.

Usually it’s not until  unbearable pain, illness, disaster or ruin strike that we are willing to face the harsh reality of our own making and give up on the external hoopla and focus instead on our own choices and become more conscious of the patterns that are hardwired into and run us. 

For many people,  it takes getting sick beyond redemption of their present circumstances to pull themselves out of this trance. 

Once they’ve reached this saturation point – they are ready to commit to facing themselves and dig beneath the hypnosis of their conditioning and see just how they have been giving away their sovereignty to outside forces and people. 

It is only then that they are able to make changes to their lives for the better by identifying their beliefs, attitudes and behaviours….and even digging into the transpersonal ie the past lives and family heritage that may have led to the subtlety of self deceit and influenced their choices.

When we hit this point of being sick to death of our own shit and stop looking outside ourselves to blame or seek changes…we are finally ready.

As we start making changes from this more integrated place of ownership, a sweet irony tends to come into play.

The change that governs our redemption starts to take on a dimension we had only read about in new age books!! The force of our own higher self enters our lives  and becomes activated, because we’ve finally chosen to meet the deepest force that lives within us – TRUTH and to learn to abide by it unconditionally.

By taking full responsibility to live with what is true and only true we coopt the power of Grace. The process can not be forced or manipulated. 

Although it may feel as if our lives are going to shit, a sense of relief and empowerment may accompany these shifts in spite of the discomfort we have to endure.

This is part of the bottoming out and cleansing process necessary to pave the way for the fresh and the good to come in.

It may feel as though we are not in control of our lives any more but the impulse to do our bit and meet whatever force for change is happening, requires us to keep embodying, breathing, taking responsibility and walking those agonising first steps….towards what we know is TRUE beyond our accustomed choices and conditioning.

This phenomena is beautifully portrayed in the film The Matrix where Neo’s fight with Agent Smith, reflects how change can not happen when we are playing out a child like, victimised, disempowered place of suffering…but it begins when we start to believe in ourselves, that we are the only one who can save ourselves and instigate a whole new world of exciting possibilities.

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